Hey guys! Bea here
I battle quite often, with what I should say or what I should share in my blog posts. On one hand, I want to be raw, and honest about the things I go through and experience as a striving artist, while on the other, I don't want to down the mood. I mean, it's a lot easier to put on a front and pretend that making art is all rainbow and sunshine lol!
In my life, though, I've come to value honesty more than anything, and I wish to express that here by being unafraid to share the good, the bad, and the ugly. That said, the honest truth is this: Being an artist is hard work. Not only can we be our own worst critics, but I've seen doubt cripple many young talents, so severely that it has swayed them from their passions.
Part of the reason I suffer from doubt is because I question sometimes if I'll ever be as great as the artists I admire. I mean it's so easy to look at someone who seems to be better off than you, and assume they've got the golden ticket! But it was only until recently that I've spoken with some of those artists, only to learn that we're in the same boat-- both trying to be better versions of ourselves while striving to be successful in what we do. In other words, I realized I wasn't alone.
Sometimes, the difference between overcoming doubt is knowing that you're not alone in your struggle-- that those whom you look up to, had to fight through the same things to find their own success.
That bring us to today's Sketch Card- Hellchild
Grimm Fairy Tales: Angelica Blackstone
One of the things I love about doing sketch cards is that I get to pick who I want to draw from a pool of characters, and typically I always go for the characters I think would either be really fun to draw or those that I feel I can resonate with. In this case, I chose one that I resonate with.
"ANGELICA BLACKSTONE is half-Greek god, half-vampire, and she's pissed! When she is brought back from the dead and given a new lease on life by monster hunter Liesel Van Helsing, Angelica joins a gang of Viking vampire junkies living in the underbelly of New York City. But she has a hell of an ax to grind with her absentee father, Hades, who she blames for her death. All hell is about to break loose! "
First thing's first, I like the greek god's, I dig vampires, and I love strong female characters who can fight! I'm inspired when I draw them because I'm reminded that sometimes what it takes to succeed in what you love doing is to fight through the odds and win against your own inner demons, which is ironically what this character does.
Of all the cards, I think this one represents my passion, to not let doubt win, and to always be a better version of myself with each passing year, and I express that, not only in the character I chose but also in the choice of color and pose.
That's it for today! That leaves us with 2 more sketch cards in the lineup. Anyway, I hope you liked this post, and as always, till next time, Enjoy!
Throughout my life I won awards, was seen as a prodogy, and according to tests I am a genius. However, I doubt myself and my skills almost every single day. I always feel like I am not good enough, and I know I can be better. As years pass, though my skills grow, my doubts grow as well. It is exhausting!
What helps me is to remind myself of what I have accomplished, rather than being disappointed by what I have not.
Strive for excellence, not perfection.
It also helps to stop comparing mysel to great artists and realise that we all move at our own pace.
What's important is to keep going and find the joy in art we felt as children. If an artist is not happy when they are drawing and painting, that is when the time has come for the artist to quit, because nothing is worth destroying our lives over -- not even art. That is the time the person should find what makes him or her happy, and they can always create art on the side.
However, even if you think your drawings, or paintings, or whatever is not good enough, even if you are not living the life-style you hope to be living, but every time you pick up a pencil, brush, stylus or another creative tool and begin to crate you feel the pure joy in your creation, then you know you are meant to be an artist.
I love to to create art, and am never so happy as when I'm creating. What tires me is the non-creative, business drudgery. 😶
I think that's awesome! You were seen as a prodigy. I on the other hand lol I didn't catch up till like after college lol. I struggled hard in school and growing up. I think it's that I'm extremely right brained? For the most part I think some people mistook me for being not so smart, or questionable, given that I was weird, but now people think I'm a genius >_<;
Those years were tough, but it's like puberty. once you get through it, things become a lot easier. You become more comfortable in your skin, and it becomes easier to be confident with yourself as you have matured. Like, right now, when I want to draw something, I can get what's in my mind onto paper without fighting myself to much do it. For example, in the past, it would take me days to just rough out a concept to a point where I'm happy with it, or at the very least, content. Now, I can crank out multiple concepts for different jobs, in one sitting to a point where I'm happy with all of them. The goal then for me is, how to take a good idea and make it better. Not to say I don't struggle here or there with some ideas I have, the process has become a lot more fun for me, because it's less of a hassle involved.
It's a good place to be in, because now I can go back and tackle many of the ideas or concepts that were very difficult for me in the past, with greater ease, and it's a joyous feeling. It's exciting again.
And yeah, in terms of living the big life-- I'm doing well for myself but I'm not like, top tier if you get me? lol But that's okay. I knew that well before I decided to make a career as an artist. I think that also keeps me grounded because my intent is always to just have fun with the work I do, and grow through it, above everything else. It's fun, and it fulfills me, and in that way, much of the work I do is less about the money I can make and more about how much fun the job is going to be-- and I'm honored to be a part of so many great projects that others have asked me to be involved in.
I'm particularly glad for you Milica, because you've been taking it a step further and dedicating your work to your own interests. That's hard to do, but damn fulfilling, I'm sure. I'm on my way there with you
I hope one day to find someone who can deal with the business side of things, so that I can focus on my art. That's the dream! 😊
I also love that I'm able to connect with other artists throughout the world and find inspiration everywhere.
Speaking of the Left Side and Right Side of the brain, I was 50%-50% when I was tested in high school. English being my second language, math was the only subject that made sene, and thus I loved it! I still think scientifically, but after focusing on art for so long I wonder if the balance has shifted. 🤔
With me, the hardest obstacle to overcome has always been social awkwardness. Crowds make me panic. I also wish I could speed up my process. Digital tools help with speed. My work is very rough in the beginning, because I try not to think too much as I draw, then I revise and revise FOREVER, until I'm about 95% happy with what I have. I wonder if I'll ever be 100% happy.
Sometimes I imagine myself being really old and creating something. Once I'm done, I'd look at it and say: "That's it!" Then... I die. 😊
I listened to it-- and I'm glad! I never heard it presented in such a way and I found the video very uplifting. Shared it with my other artist friends who go through the same. I really appreciate you taking the time to share this with me